Osho Rajneesh Book "This Is It"

This Is It

10 May 1977 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium

Deva means divine, garima means glory – divine glory. One thing is very important for you to

understand, and it is that when a person is young a few things are easy, a few things are difficult.

For example, religion is difficult. It is easier to be in desires, it is difficult to leave them. But when a

person is old it is very easy to drop desires and very difficult to continue desires.

Life itself prepares you to come closer to god. Old age has one thing tremendously beautiful about

it that desires can be left easily: even if you don’t leave them, they leave you. When they leave

you it is ugly – you feel cheated – but when you leave them, there is a glory and great beauty in it.

Meditation is very very simple in old age. The whole life’s experience has proved that it was nothing

but a dream. One can easily get out of it – this life that has now become almost a dream. And you

are ready for it!

Deva means divine, samveda means sensitivity – divine sensitivity. And sensitivity is the path –

insensitivity is the obstacle. If we are insensitive, then there is no way; we are closed. There is no

passage from our innermost core to existence; we are windowless. We are in a capsule... and each

human being is living in a capsule.

The capsule is very subtle and transparent, so you don’t feel it, you don’t see it, but a little awareness

and it becomes apparent that it is surrounding you everywhere. It is just as if your hands are

in a glove and you shake hands: something goes on covering your sensitivity. You are covered

completely with clothes and going out into the sun; the sunrays cannot penetrate your skin.

You have an umbrella and it protects you from rain, but it also obstructs the rain from reaching you.

Sometimes it is good to throw the umbrella and just go into the rains and to feel it. Naked on a

beach, naked in a forest, just allow the air and the sun and the rain to touch you!

The more sensitive you become to things, the more aware you will become that god is present

everywhere. In the same proportion of sensitivity that you have, you will feel god present. The less

sensitivity you have, the less you will feel god; if you have no sensitivity, you will not feel god at all.

If god is dead in this century, it is not because god is dead but because man’s sensitivity is dead.

We cannot touch, we cannot taste, we cannot smell; something is covering our being.

So uncover your being – that is the message in the name – and by uncovering your being you will

be able to discover yourself.

[A sannyasin who is leaving says her feelings about sannyas and Osho are precarious. She

knows she must take responsibility for what happens to herself but doesn’t know what to do in

her confusion.... ]

In the beginning there is always confusion, but all these things that are troubling you right now will

prove great stepping stones. It is almost like digging a well. When you start digging the hole you

don’t get the water immediately: first you get stones, dry earth, rubbish, then by and by purer earth,

then wet earth, then muddy water, and then finally you get pure water.

The process of digging into oneself is exactly the same. In the beginning you get only rubbish,

because that is your first layer – anger, jealousy, hatred, sadness; that junk is there. When you start

digging in, that is the thing you have to encounter first. So don’t be worried about it: it is just a part

of the process.

If you go still a little deeper, better things will start coming. After anger has been finished,

compassion arises – it is just there underneath anger: each angry person is potentially a

compassionate person.

First you go and you find greed. If you go on digging, if the greed does not inhabit you then soon

you will find sharing arising out of it. Behind greed there is the quality of sharing .... And it is so

with everything! Just behind your jealousy, possessiveness, is the quality of love. One has to go on

digging continuously.

Yes, certainly in the beginning there is confusion, mm? because so much is stirred up. Next time

you are here things will start settling, but meanwhile continue to meditate so that whatsoever has

started is not undone by you again, otherwise you will have to start from abc again.

So even if sometimes you feel it is troublesome... It is! – it is not comfortable and you will never be

so so comfortable as you used to be unless you pass through it; then for the first time you will be

really comfortable and at ease with yourself.

Before this confusion started and this inconvenience, your ease and comfort were just imposed

ideas. You were sitting on a volcano and thinking everything was fine – but the volcano can erupt

any moment. Now you have become aware of the volcano – you know it is underneath so you

cannot sit so comfortably. But this is a better situation than the first, because in the first situation you

were completely unaware of the volcano: you were sitting on top of it and enjoying. Now you cannot

enjoy because you know the volcano is there and something has to be done, otherwise any day it

will erupt and it will be too late then. You have to move away from it, you have to find another spot

for your being, some other way of being, some other style of living. That’s what this confusion is all

about. This confusion is saying to you that your style of life up to now has not been right.

And that too is natural – that you throw the whole responsibility on me. That is natural, mm? I expect

it – there is nothing wrong with it. That’s my whole purpose here: you can throw all responsibility

on me. Nothing to be worried about. That too is part of our mind: we never want to take the

responsibility. If you are feeling angry, if you are feeling confused, you will say ’Somebody has done

it. Now it is Osho – he has done it!’ But this is your past: you have always been throwing the

responsibility on somebody – mother, father, society, friend, enemy... but somebody!

A man becomes religious the day he starts taking the whole responsibility on himself. That day

– when a man says ’Now I am responsible; whatsoever happens to me, I am responsible’ – he

becomes mature too.

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