Osho Rajneesh Book "Unio Mystica Vol 1"

Unio Mystica Vol 1

November 1978 am in Buddha Hall

The first question:

Question 1

TODAY IN LECTURE I LOOKED AT YOU AND I FELT MYSELF SO SHALLOW AND PHONEY AND FALSE. THERE DOESN’T SEEM TO BE ANYTHING DEEPER INSIDE OF ME. DO THESE FEELINGS SHOW THAT I DON’T HAVE A CENTER YET? IT ALSO SHOCKS ME THAT THIS SEEMS TO BE MY FACE AT THE MOMENT.

Bhagavato, nobody can exist without a center. Life is impossible without a center – you may not be

aware of it, that’s another matter. It has not to be created but only rediscovered. And remember, I

am not saying ‘discovered’, I am saying ‘rediscovered’.

The child in the mother’s womb remains perfectly aware of the center. The child in the mother’s

womb is at the center, vibrates at the center, pulsates at the center. The child is the center in the

mother’s womb, he has no circumference yet. He is only essence, he has no personality yet.

Essence is the center, that which is your nature, that which is God-given. Personality is the

circumference, that which is cultivated by society; it is not God-given. It is by nurture, not by nature.

As the child comes out of the womb, he comes for the first time in contact with something outside

of himself. And that contact creates the circumference. Slowly slowly, the society initiates the child

into its own way. The Christian society will make the child a Christian, and the Hindu, a Hindu, and

so on and so forth. Then layer upon layer of conditioning is imposed on the child.

CHAPTER 2. ON THE ALTAR OF THE REAL

Basically, if you enter into a well-developed personality you will find these three things. First, a very

thin positive layer – positive but phoney. That is the layer which goes on pretending; that is the layer

where all your masks are contained. Fritz Perls used to call that layer the ”Eric Berne layer”. It is

where you play all kinds of games.

You may be crying within, but on that layer you go on smiling. You may be full of rage, you may want

to murder the other person, but you go on being sweet. And you say ”How good of you to come. I

am so happy, so glad to see you.” Your face shows gladness; that is phoney.

But to exist in a phoney society you will need a phoney layer. Otherwise you will be in as much

difficulty as Socrates was, Jesus was, I am. That phoney layer keeps you part of the phoney society;

you don’t fall apart. It is a false world, what in the East we have called ‘maya’. It is illusory, it is all

false and phoney.

The other person also is smiling as falsely as you are smiling. Nobody is really smiling. People are

carrying wounds – but they have decorated their wounds with flowers, they are hiding their wounds

behind flowers.

Parents are in a hurry to give this layer to the child. They are in a hurry because they know the child

has to exist as a member of a false society. It will be difficult for the child to survive without it; it

functions as a lubricating agent.

This is a very thin layer, skin-deep. Scratch anybody a little and suddenly you will find that the

flowers have disappeared; and rage and hatred and all kinds of negative things are hidden behind

it. That is the second layer – negative but still false.

The second layer is thicker than the first. The second layer is the layer where much work has to be

done. That’s where psycho-therapies come in. And because there is a great negative layer behind

the positive, you are always afraid to go in, because to go in means you will have to cross that ugly

phenomenon, that dirty rubbish that you have gathered, year in and year out, your whole life.

From where does the second layer come? The child is born as a pure center, as innocence, with no

duality. He is one. He is in the state of UNIO MYSTICA: he does not yet know that he is separate

from existence. He lives in unity; he has not known any separation, the ego has not arisen yet.

But immediately the society starts working on the child. It says, ”Don’t do this. This will not be

acceptable to the society: repress it. Do this, because this is acceptable to the society and you will

be respected, loved, appreciated.

So a duality is created in the child; on the circumference a duality arises. The first layer is the positive

that you have to show to others, and the second layer is the negative that you have to hide within

yourself.

The child is innocent. He is innocent in his love, he is innocent in his anger. He does not make a

distinction. When he is in love he is in love, and he is totally in love. And when he is angry he is

totally angry, he is just pure anger. Hence the beauty of the child. Even when he is angry he has a

superb beauty, grace – even in his anger, because the totality is there. Grown-ups even when they

are in love are not so beautiful, because the totality is missing.

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