Osho Rajneesh Book "Until You Die"

Until You Die

Truth Is Not Veiled
15 April 1975 am in Buddha Hall

A MAN CAME TO BAYAZID AND SAID THAT HE HAD FASTED AND PRAYED FOR THIRTY

YEARS AND YET HAD NOT COME NEAR TO AN UNDERSTANDING OF GOD.

BAYAZID TOLD HIM THAT EVEN A HUNDRED YEARS WOULD NOT BE ENOUGH.

THE MAN ASKED WHY.

‘BECAUSE YOUR SELFISHNESS ISWORKING AS A BARRIER BETWEEN YOURSELF AND THE TRUTH,’ SAID BAYAZID.

TRUTH IS not veiled. It is not hidden. It is always just in front of your eyes. If you miss it, it is not

because of it, but because your eyes are closed. The veil is not on the face of truth: the veil is on

you. And not only one – many, millions of veils.

If truth were hidden, then one Buddha, one Mohammed, or one Zarathustra, would have been

enough. Once uncovered, everybody would have known it. It would have been just like it is in a

scientific discovery – you need not discover it again and again. Albert Einstein discovers something.

It becomes a common property. Then every schoolchild knows about it. It need not be discovered

again. Once discovered, it is discovered.

But what happens? A Buddha discovers, a Mohammed discovers again. You will have to discover

it again. What is the matter? The matter is this: that the veil is not on the truth – otherwise, one

man would have unveiled it and everybody would have realized it – the veil is on you. So everybody

has to unveil himself, and truth has to be discovered again and again by each and every one of

you. It can never become a common property. It can never become a collective truth. It will remain

individual.

But why are your eyes closed? There must be some great investment in them, in the closed eyes.

And there is. And that has to be understood. If it is just a matter of opening the eyes, then why don’t

you open them? Who is holding you back? Who is preventing you? Truth is naked, absolutely nude.

That is the nature of truth – you can call it God – and it is just in front of you, and it has always been

so. But why don’t you open your eyes? There seems to be a great investment.

It happened once: A woman was brought to me. She was a very beautiful person. Her husband

died, and they had been married for only three months. And they had loved each other tremendously,

against the whole society, the whole world. They had left everything just for their love. And suddenly

the husband died. It was too much for the woman, the poor woman. She remained with closed eyes

for three days. She wouldn’t open them – because deep down she knew that if she opened her

eyes... the husband is dead, the corpse is there. People tried to persuade her, they did everything,

but she would not open her eyes. And she would go on saying, ‘My husband is not dead. Who says

my husband is dead?’ They couldn’t wait any longer: the body had to be burned.

The day they burned the body, the woman opened her eyes. But by that time she had lost the

capacity to see! – a very deep investment. Eyes were perfectly okay, no physiological trouble. The

medical doctors were amazed. They said, ‘There is no problem! Everything is perfectly normal.’ But

she couldn’t see. It was as if somebody behind the eyes had stepped back; somebody who was

standing behind the eyes and looking at the world had stepped back. Now the window was there,

but nobody to look through it.

For four weeks she remained psychically blind. And in her blindness she was continuously saying,

‘Who says that my husband is dead? If he is dead, then where is his corpse? If he is dead then

where is his corpse?’ Even in dreams, in the night, suddenly she would start saying, ‘Who says my

husband is dead?’ And she knows! Deep down she knows that the husband is dead, but the mind

would not like to believe it. The mind would like to live in an illusion. Even an illusion is beautiful if

the husband is alive, and the reality will not be so beautiful if the husband is dead. They had really

loved each other very deeply.

The woman was brought to me. I had known them before. When she came to me, she was behaving

as if she was completely blind. Somebody had to help her. I said to her, ‘Your husband is very much

troubled. Just this morning he has been to see me and he is suffering very much. Why don’t you

see! – and the medical experts say there is nothing wrong with your eyes.’ I talked as if the husband

was alive – now this was too much. Suddenly she broke, fell down, started rolling on the ground,

and said, ‘My husband is dead. Why do you say he has been to you this morning? He is dead!’ And

the eyes came back. Suddenly the stony feeling in the eyes disappeared – she was able to see.

What to do? What happened? Suddenly she realized a fact which she had been denying. Through

the denial a false blindness had happened. Once she accepted the fact that the husband was dead,

she screamed. I have never seen anybody scream that way. That must be what Janov calls the

primal scream. From the very guts she screamed. It was not a scream done by her. It was a scream

that possessed her whole being, every pore of it. The whole body mind went into a volcanic state.

The whole being trembled. It took almost half an hour for her to come back to normal. But the storm

had gone and she was silent, and she looked at me and she thanked me.

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